Damn it! damn you Nordic Sex God!!

Fuck!... He does it again!.... He can't even talk to me without me feeling like I'm gonna drool...

It's sick, this whole pathetic weakness I've got for him... and honestly, it's driving me insane.

Literally, my underwear seems to melt when he starts acting all kinky... How can a woman not want a guy that just inspires crazy and mind blowing and ecstatic sex?...

I can't have him, but... Oh God!... how much do I want him... it's just not normal...

Why does this little relationship have to be so complicated?... He wants me and I want him, why can't we just have each other? why do we have to be oceans and countries apart? why is it so expensive to go there? and why is he not trying to at least seduce me in to doing something kinky? Normally he is just expecting me to do something naughty just for him...

Mmm... maybe he knows the whole effect he has on me... though... I hate it when men think they can just do whatever they please just 'cause you want them...

I'm not his love puppy... I'm just very very obsessed with having him for myself, but still that doesn't mean I'll just throw myself at him, 'cause he hasn't even earned anything at all and he isn't even trying to seduce me ever, at least not in the ways I'm used to...

It's so frustrating, 'cause I'm not willing to go after him, and even if he wanted to, he can't come after me, because he has bigger things to worry about.... He should have come to me sooner, when he was actually free...

Damn you! damn you Nordic Sex God!! You and your incredible attractive white phallus! Damn it all!

I'll probably never have him at all... but I must say that he will, I'm pretty sure, always be my Nordic Sex God... And the worst part is that sometimes he thinks I don't want him... and I just find that to be hilarious, 'cause if he knew I actually called him "Nordic Sex God" I think he'd probably stop doubting himself...

Sometimes my mind says "Shut up and go!... Do what you most want and stop worrying if it is right or wrong... Go have amazing godly sex with him".... but this only happens sometimes, only sometimes... if only things were that easy...