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I tend to be away for a long time from places that I call home. Its frustrating to actually live so many different life's and still keep them in a "perfect balance". Friends tend to forget about you, start to go out with other people, sometimes they even stop being friends. Of course only the good and loyal ones remain and that! that is actually comforting in a way.

Loneliness is something I often feel, maybe because I live far from the people I love or just maybe because I've always felt like a lonely person. Its not something sad at all. I think I just like to be alone sometimes. Though other times I cant resist the thrill of having someone near. Someone close to me. Someone that understands.

People that understand. I've met such people and they are incredibly interesting! Not many can understand me or try to give me the time to do so. But what can I say? I appreciate people that do comprehend me...

Lately I've felt interested in connecting with certain people. I wonder if I can ever have a true connection with them. I've learned so much these couple of years. Life just seems to turn more and more beautiful everyday. In all its disastrous self, life is... without any doubt... incredible.

I can say with certainty now that I live on love and affection. Just yesterday I was drunk in the joy of a caress. A close friend softly played with my hair and kissed my head with tenderness. It was glorious to just feel that simple gesture of care. I melt every time I receive such sweet cares.

I love feeling cared for. I love feeling my friends, my real friends close. Even if I've been away for so long, it is so good to find people that are still there waiting for me, caring for me and specially loving me for who i am. Because I'll always love them for who they truly are.