Lost?

Again I must say "It's not easy living in a third world country". It's not easy having to tolerate constant abuse of our rights, it's not easy seeing how many people suffer. Only third world countries could understand what I mean. They're the only ones that could.

Places like Europe or the U.S. aren't exactly "Paradise" either, but you don't see crude and ugly suffering as obviously as you could see it everyday in a South American street for example.

And still, who am I? I'm nobody, I'm nothing, I'm powerless. No matter how much I wish I could do something for change, no matter how much I dream for the good of others. It's just not enough.

Who are we to believe we're gods, gods that can change, manipulate and use things around us for our own good. At the end...Are we doing any good at all? Why dream hoping the best for a world that can't even help itself?

Look at me whining over a mess. Over the mess I avoid everyday, that we all avoid everyday...

I can't make a change in the world, I just... I only wish I could make a change in mine. My country deserves more than this... more than it's receiving from life and us.

Now people back home see uncommon things as very common, in other words NORMAL..."Oh I got robbed again, thank God he only had a knife this time" or "Look in the papers, another couple of kids got kidnapped, the police has no clue". Police? Police, you ask? That word doesn't have any meaning to me, at least not the meaning that other countries might give it.

My opinion is worth shit. I'm a person that always tries to look at the bright side. If I don't... I just try to let go of the pain and give up to a nice fantasy. Sometimes there's no need to actually look at chaos when the chaos is unrepairable. Sometimes you just have to do what you can, keep on going with your life. Sometimes you have to accept that we do deserve hell. Even if sometimes I dream with heaven.

God I'm a drama queen! It's all so sad.

Not many would agree not many would understand what I mean. I don't understand much of what is happening either, meaning all the corruption and cruelty. But when people show they've got hope. Well it's the only thing that makes me believe that maybe we're not completely lost.